Sunday, April 27, 2008 @ 3:40 PM
pathetic day
today is hungry day.. i only eat my breakfast only, lunch haven eat yet.. so i hungry wad.. lol. i simply nothing to say but only food cann save me!! after yesterday event, today early in the morning 7:05am, he message me, but i was sleeping like a pig, until 10am+. oh he want to come to my hse, cux he jus move to woodlands, in the morning, 6 plus lidat... i think its okie to let him come, but my parent wont agree one la. so i went to meet him at sembawang, go robin hse play COMPUTER! so i followed him along.. i also dunno i follow him go ther for wad siax.. watch him play computer than create a gunbound account than set the password as her name~ pls i not a holy person OK! act a bit infront of me will die izit, at least let me think that, at least one day she is not in your brainless mind... yaya.. i dumb, thats why i didn't say it.. now i also feel like playing my game siax.. sian lorrx.. he now sleeping, than i also dunno want to do wad leh.. as a girl, i am totally a loser.. but the fact is, i got nth to lose leh, i am just... scared.. i cant blame her wad.. she also never do anything.. but if she know wad happen she confirm will damn bloody turn off one..cux i am a girl, i knew it!!so boring... if he cann think for me more i than happy lo.. no one hand u still having hope on her on the other hand u are not going to let go... to me, sometimes i really feel like i am just a replacement of her.. though u dont think so, but if u now turn to like me more, pls show me. i dont wann early in the morning see u turning you head to the other side, setting your password as her name.. action really speak louder than words.. if u willing, there is nth u cant do... how i wish u cann think that, rather than thinking those unrealistic thinks, why not cherish the one beside u?? if i am a guy, i confirm won be like you..
so issit, when she broke up with her boyfriend and turn arrow to u, than u will dump miie?? i am not willing to think that every seconds.. painful enough, and waste my time.. if i knew it earlier, i will never do it... 2 yrs ago, i was once cherish by you.. but 2 yrs later,i am so called used as a spare tire for yourself.. i really dont wann to give this relationship up easily. if u really want to
hold on to 2 at a time, i am sorry... i am not willing to shared, when even your hart is not with me..
finally, i am just a human, no matter how hard i tried, i cant pretend to see nth... because, i care..