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Saturday, June 19, 2010 @ 12:14 AM
Fuck u ppl
I am in super bad mood. Bf chase me home not letting me join supper. I shouldn't have said chase. But I feeling being chase although u deny chase this word. Anyway. I don't fuck care that la. I am this attitude ok. I can't possible to pretend a good girl for too long?. I have a super fuck hot temper and fucking suck character. What u going to do wit that? I can be very gentle at times, but not every times. I am very good at tolerating. But don't u ppl that there's a limit?

Ok letting me rest more is the reason. Ok la. Acceptable! Fine. But U know no matter how many hour I slp I will still feel tired? Jus Like u always says. U don't understand is it. I'm now telling u. I am not tired in physically but in mentally. My soul is Tired of doing things that I don't like. Understand??!!!! I know I have to rest no matter wad. Sorry . I am still playful.

I also have attitute ok. I nvr throw a temper u think I very good discipline ? Sorry and I am not a good kid. Did I disappoint u?

In thr past I have to say I am blind when I in love, every really fall in love idiot do. But now I finally cann see how blind I am. I swear not to repeat the same old stupid fucking stuff ever again. i see the point to leave. But I know. I am jus another fucking idiot.

I have so many many many many tons of grudges to say to let it out. I have so many things to say!!!!! Fuck!!! But i dnt anyone to to tell!!! Can I have a listen hear ONLY? Only listen to what u say!!! I don't nid comments or any fucking ideas. I fuckjng know what am u doing. I jus nid to spill out all my unhappiness!! No matter right or wrong! Can u listen? I scared, one day I really can't take it. A blog is much more useful then a human being. i nid a listen ear.


U don't have to tell mr the world is like this. I know better then anyone of u here. I nid support not harsh words. U fucking understand not!!!! Bet u only think I am just sprouting nonsense, if u are reading this.

My parents wasn't caring seriously. Probably they are not good in words. But at least say something not that harsh? Damn I am seriously damn fucking upset when I go home I have to hear those unwanted stuff. Study wasn't easy for now. I understand working is stressful but I am stressful don't u know? I feel like other choice might suit me. Yeah. I know.

Volleyball used to be my passion. Now I start to feel sick of it. Seriously. No matter in school or outside. There is always one spoiler. Fuck?! In ITE, a VP is useless. Captain is more useless. For what to have this post? Noone listen what. U think I very zai uh. Na bei. I can't do anything ok. If I nvr come then very little ppl come. If I come no ppl listen to why I say. Jus normal drills leh. Fuck sio. Can't u jus get ur Butt up then start moving? I seriously wanted to quit la. But later ppl say I not responsible. I don't care ok. I am not happy in the team. Even outside. I always think big sister should be more matured and easy to get along. Ya right.. Worst then a Ite student. Attitude seriously kns until dunno what to say.

i feel that u are the one, but, i think u want me as the one. sometimes promises counts. i dunid nid u to promise me that u will give me a rich life or any rubbish. but if u think i am not the one, pls say. i am ready to have a long lasting relationship wit my bf, but if u are uncertain, pls pls pls. i have no courage to go on. probably u think that i am too sure abt this. but i jus cant believe in any guys anymore. i getting abnormal after treating like shit after each relationship. i dream abt those unhappiness, woke up wit fear and teared. u know how that feel? i am not a toy, and i am not saying u treating me like a toy ok. i jus feel that i am a person who nid a firm direction. i nid u to guide me, if not pls pass it on.sometimes ur unintentional stabs me deeply. haha. i know i am dramatic. i feel like crying sometimes. i cry every after argue.

like today. i am such a stupid fucking idiot.

我是个很自卑的小孩。恋爱,学业,品行,美貌,我样样不行。我该怎么办?我很需要一双肯聆听我的怨言,不论对或错。你能吗?

above is jus my personal thots, if u are reading pls read and forget. i am not writing this to pick up fight wit u